Friday, February 24, 2012

Good Bye Vinny



So my blog title is wrong, as of the 15th last week.  What started out as a normal Wednesday ended in the loss of my buddy, my first dog.  Now in typical Vinny style he did go out with some "romance" and humor.  You see Vinny the horn dog king came out of his kennel with his penis fully out.  We thought it'd go back down, it had done this before. But time went on and the penis still hung low...haha.  My friend, who I must say is a true friend and conveniently a veterinarian came by and spent the next hour soaking his penis in a sugar water solution and trying to get it to go back. Who else would do that?  Any way after over an hour and no success we gave the kiddo an anti-inflammatory pill and let him lay down.  After watching him for a while, it was decided this problem was not going away.  It was "an erection lasting longer than 4 hours"  So I packed him in the car and drove off to the emergency vet clinic, I was not looking forward to the expense but gosh could only imagine what would happen if he penis lost blood circulation.  We got checked in, and the vet tried again to get the offending member back in place.  Well it would not go, so the decision was to sedate him and cut the skin so that the now swollen penis would go back in place..two stitches and he'd be as good as new....yowsa!! But it was only supposed to take 5 mins, plus some wake up time and then we could crawl back in bed.  I sat playing on my phone and just as I thought things were taking a little long, the vet rushed in the room to tell me he was having problems with anesthesia.  I came back to the treatment area to find the vet team performing cpr on my dog and was told his heart had stopped.  Well they tried for 15 mins to revive my little buddy to no avail.  Reality crept in as I watched him slip away. My little Vinny...the dog who had survived through so much, so many problems from seizures, hydrocephalus, and eye removal just the month before...to now die all because he was a horny lil bugger! 
He was the first pet I've had die. I mean my childhood kitties ran away, were given away by my parents, or died after I moved away. This was the first tragic loss of my own.  It's been weird. I've been in the vet field a long time, Ive seen many a pet leave their family, I've watched their owners cry.  So surreal to have the tables turn, to know what is happening, to hear those words of grief come out of my own mouth.  To have the words of sympathy be told to me... I have no experience on what to say from this end...yes it sucks, thank you for your sympathy.
Anyway I haven't wanted to talk about it a whole lot, but felt the need to tell my story and say good bye. Maybe its because I got his ashes back today.  So I say good bye Vinny, I really hope you are some where running as fast as you did when you were young, that you can see, that your body is whole again.  Thanks for being such an inspiration of how to have a good attitude no matter what. Thanks for the laughs, and kisses.  Farewell my friend!!





Wednesday, January 18, 2012

January

Well ok so I'm obviously not a good blogger, seeing as I missed the whole new years thing.  I just have not found the best time to blog.  I do hope to have a great 2012 and have kind of decided to go along with the "one word" new years resolution...the have all your goals go to meeting this umbrella goal... My word is peace...not world peace or anything like that, I do not have that lofty of goals, but peace of mind, peace at home, peace at heart to be happy with what I have and who I am.  I want to achieve this peace by finding a new job this year, hoping to work less hours and in a field that I actually enjoy instead of loathe!  I want to be able to find peace at home even if the dishes haven't bee done yet, I let simple things like messes get in the way of the time I have to be happy with Alexander, Kris, and the critters.  I will continue to strive to be organized enough to keep simple peace that order can bring.  I typed up shopping list of the normal stuff we buy and left room for add ons, its on the fridge with a pen and has helped so far.  I also wrote up a menu for the month, I left a few blanks for days of inspiration or laziness. It's really helped me plan dinners and it helps Kris help me if he knows what we are having.  I'd like to find the peace that exercising can bring, when you feel relaxed and a little healthier. I'd like to find the peace of mind knowing I've eaten healthy and fed my son healthy foods.
Any way I could go on and on, but I won't bore you... so peace is my word...

2011 in review was a wonderful and difficult year. I can't complain because it was the year that brought Alexander into our lives and nothing is better than that. We got to see lots of family this year, with a trip to Michigan in July and home to California for Thanksgiving, and my parents visiting a few times. However with Kris loosing his job and me going back to work full time at the very place I hate working there was some serious challenges too. Luckily as the year ended Kris found a job, of course I never realized how stressful it is to have a child, pets and two parents working full time....there is just never enough time!

So on to a new year! I can't wait to watch Alexander grow and learn to walk and feed himself.  Can't wait to see what new job opportunity may be out there, there is the possibility of working less hours...oooh!

So there it is folks my already procrastinated new years post!